First of all, I'd like to say that I'm praying for all those affected by the shooting. Unfortunately I have been there, and I know what those people in Connecticut are going through. I was in a school shooting, and it's something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I can only hope (probably in vain) that those children are too young to remember it or for it to have long-lasting effects. Because it 100% has changed my life. Even 13.5 years later, it affects my life on a regular basis. One of these effects is that I cannot watch/read the coverage. It takes me back to the days of sadness, sorrow, confusion, fear, and the unrelenting media coverage. Of the few details I do know, I know that it was horrific. The fact that it was an adult killing innocent young children is unspeakable. So, the most I can handle right now is praying for those people and staying away from the television. By the way, in the weeks, months, and years after the shooting, the support and love from the community, nation, and world was unbelievable. I will never forget all the love and support that we felt. 
In other news of the week from you know where, I was laid off after six and a half years. So I'm left asking the question, what do I want to be when I grow up? I never thought I'd have to answer that question again after I decided in college, but I'm a decade out of college and I find myself asking it again. The real question is do I find another job in the same field or do I pursue my love of cooking and baking? Decisions, decisions. 
In the midst of all these changes and dramatic events, these cookies make me happy. I think they're calm and reassuring and fun. If you're looking for Christmas gifts to give to loved ones, I highly suggest making a batch of these. Trust me, your friends and family will be blown away by them. I made them using this recipe and tutorial. In my tutorial, I don't cover how to pipe on top of the flooded icing. So...after you flood the icing, let them dry for 3-4 hours. Then you can pipe the design on top and let them dry overnight. When I made these, I outlined them in the morning and then flooded them. I piped the design on top after dinner and packaged them up the next morning. You certainly can spread out the timeline more, but I was on a deadline.

In the wake of sorrow, beauty is much appreciated.

Inspired by Annie's Eats


12/16/2012 11:25pm

Love the pastel colors! So gorgeous!

12/17/2012 5:51am

I am thinking of you and I know you are so talented and amazing you'll be able to do whatever you decide to do!

12/17/2012 10:59am

Oh gosh, I'm sat here crying after reading your post over your own experience with a school shooting. My heart is so heavy right now and I'm thinking and praying for all involved. I can't even begin to imagine how terrible it must be to be faced with that situation, I'll definitely be hugging my family a little tighter because things like this make you realise how precious life is.

I'm sorry you've been laid off, I think you are incredibly talented, I read all of your posts and if you decide to follow your passion I wish you every success. I've always believed that you should do what makes you happy, I sometimes struggle to follow my own advice, but if baking makes you happy then go for it :)

12/17/2012 2:02pm

My heart goes out to you. Even here in Canada your news like this is on our front page, and we are so close to you in heart as well as geography. It is impossible to read about it with dry eyes, and I hadn't realized you had survived such a thing. Thanks for the cookies. I will think of you while I make them, and the beauty and joy you bring to us with your posts.

12/18/2012 7:56am

I'm sure it's difficult for those that have been involved in a shooting to hear about it all over again, and mourn for the new sadness. Many people in my family are teachers, and 2 years ago there was a lockdown where my sister and brother-in-law teach. Thankfully, no one was harmed but the gunman himself was killed.

Thanks for sharing beauty. We all need something uplifting in these times.


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